Soul Searching

From the time we are in kindergarten we are asked the same question...

What do you want to be when you grow up?

At first the answers were simple: firefighter, teacher, doctor, mom, or Disney Princess.  But as we grow up and learn about the many different opportunities out there the list grows.  By middle school the answers are scientist, elementary school teacher, the President of the United States, or a writer.  Then high school happens where we find what our interests are, our favorite subjects, and develop a clearer picture of what we may want to be when we grow up.

By college it's time to declare a major or some basic idea of what you think you would be interested in doing for the rest of your life.  Throughout my life I have always been interested in everything.  School came easy for me and I never really had a tough time in any subject...except maybe math.  Yeah I definitely didn't like math.  So I got through high school and was ready to start college still tackling the question "What do you want to be when you grow up?"  Well I narrowed it down to 2 different tracks:

       Communications                            OR                                    Pre-Med

Yes, I know they two completely different tracks but they represented the two things I was interested in the most.  I loved English class, reading, and writing all throughout school.  But I also enjoyed science and logically going through a problem and identifying a solution.  I was going back and forth between a field that dealt with the "grey" and another that was all "black and white."  Well everyone always says that college is that time to experiment with different fields...so I did.  I pretty much finished my required classes after my freshman year and decided as a sophomore (well technically as a junior since I came in with so many credits I was graduating early) to give some science classes a try.  

Now that I'm a college grad with a Bachelor of Arts degree in Communications, I'll let you figure out how those science classes went.  So now I have this degree in a very broad field.  There are so many different facets to the Communications field.  Journalism, public relations, social media, marketing, human resources, sales, writing, blogging, reporting, and so many more that I haven't even discovered yet.  There is so much that I can do with my degree, but it's just figuring out if I want to do it. 

There's still that question looming over my head...What do I want to be when I grow up?  I don't have an answer yet and I'm sure once I do find the answer it will change in 5, 10, or 50 years.  But I need to do some soul searching to find an answer for the "right now."  It could be moving to a new city to find the answer.  It could be staying at home for a few months or a year to figure out what it is I exactly want to do.  It could be going back to school for a higher degree or an entirely different one.  

I guess that question your pre-k or kindergarten teacher asks never really does get answered.  The only answer is finding something that you love to do and are passionate about and do it until you don't.  That could be for a month, a few years, or forever.  But I guess you never really know until you get out there and try to find out what the possible answers are.  So whether you're 5 or 50...what do you want to be when you grow up?

A Little R & R

I know it's been a while since the last time I blogged, but I have done a lot with my time.  The past few weeks have been all about friends and family.  The majority of my posts are about my struggle and frustrations with being a post grad.  However, the last few weeks I was glad I was an unemployed post grad.  I had the time to still go on a weekend getaway with my girlfriends and go on a family vacation.

My entire life I have been dreaming about having great friends like those in shows like Lipstick Jungle and Sex and the City.  I pictured myself sharing my entire life with these girlfriends, growing together, and having a blast.  Well this dream became a reality when I met my best friends at college: Catie, Katie, and A.  The four of us have become close in only two short years, even when there was an ocean between us.  Earlier this summer we decided to take a girlfriend getaway.  Unfortunately A couldn't make it because of an event for her internship.  So Catie, Katie, and I ventured North to Niagara Falls and Niagara on the Lake in Ontario, Canada for a weekend full of gossip, fun, and relaxation.  We partied on Clifton Hill, took in the falls on the Maid of the Mist, and sipped our way through 3 different wineries.  Overall, it was the best weekend of my summer!  I know that this is just the beginning of the many travel adventures to come!

As soon as I arrived back at home it was time to unpack and repack my suitcase for another vacation...this time with my family.  It was my family of 5, my boyfriend Chad, my grandparents, and my aunts, uncles, and cousins on my mom's side to make a grand total of 15 people.  We took a caravan of 3 cars to our favorite summer vacation spot: Bethany Beach, Delaware.  Bethany Beach is your typical beach town filled with quaint boutiques, custard shops, and boardwalks.  But it is a short drive to Ocean City or Rehobeth Beach if you want a change of scenery.  We rent a house with a pool that is a 5-10 minute walk from the beach.  The best part of this vacation is that it is the best place to just relax.  Everyone gets to do whatever they like and not have to worry about staying on any type of schedule.  However our vacation was cut one day short due to crazy amounts of rain and flooding.  But I was so glad that I was able to go on this vacation with my family.  As everyone is getting older it's only going to be harder and harder to get everyone one together, so I'm glad I was able to be there.  

For once I was thankful to be an unemployed, post graduate.  But now the real search for the rest of life begins...